Monthly Archives: June 2011

30 BC – DAY 23

Today, I am blessed because…

I got called for some jobs!

I am actually on the hunt for a full time job that is in line with my current studies. However, until that materialises, I am lucky to have found other small jobs here and there to keep me a little financially stable.

How are you BLESSED today?

Tamara.

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30 BC – DAY 22

Today, I am blessed because…

...I love my first name!

If there’s one thing my parents got right, it was my name!

Before I started this blog, I needed to give it a proper name. I came up with a whole list of possible blog names but settled for my full name in the end. However, I was stuck with the prospect of keeping my surname in the web address. You see, I have attracted some positive opportunities in my life due to my surname. I have come to learn that people with my same surname are very proud of it and try to stick out for each other. The problem is I never felt the same way about it.

My mind was changed when I decided to order a free Name Report from the Society of Kabalarians in Vancouver. This group have been considered as a sort of cult group and I had found warnings of their teachings before requesting the report. However, I was so unhappy with my surname, at the time, that I decided to go ahead and send them an email. They immediately compiled a report for me which provided information on how balanced my full name is, how it aligns with my birth path and even which nicknames bring me harmony. According to the Kabalarian Philosophy, if your name is not balanced it will deter you from following your life-path.

Now, I am the type of person who doesn’t give a shit about horoscopes and numerology and all that stuff, but there’s something about names which I find very mystical. It could be because I grew up as a Roman Catholic, reading Bible stories about men who were given names by God which meant particular destinies; I really don’t know. All I know is that names fascinate me and even though I thought the whole Kabalarian Philosophy was a pile of BS, I still went ahead with the report.

As it turns out, the report was pretty spot on and I was quite impressed. It was very detailed and covered many aspects of my life from birth to death. And best of all, it convinced me that my name is not that bad after all. I didn’t come to this revelation because the report said I have a balanced name. Au contraire, it actually said that there are certain imbalances in my name that may affect my health and other aspects of my life. It made me realise the positive aspects of my surname which were always there but the report just made me appreciate them more. In fact, everything in that report was a kind of wake-up call to me. In retrospect, I think that that report changed me more than I think it did.

Since then, I have hardly given a thought about the Kabalarians and my name. But three days ago I thought of the report and opened it up again. It is not something I believe in fully but it is a pretty helpful form of reflection for me. At the end of the report, it asks if I want to attend a name-changing session. I never even considered that because I can’t really tell if they say the same things to all their clients: “Your name is sending out negative vibes man. Seek the balanceeeee!” (haha, Sorry I can just imagine some hippy high on the herbs looking at the colour of my aura). And it’s kind of odd really, because I only found out about them because I WANTED to change my surname! The report had the exact opposite effect on me – it made me respect my surname like never before.

I really don’t know what the future has in store for my surname. All I know is that I don’t feel unhappy about it anymore and I cannot understand why it had made me feel this way for most of my life. It is weird how our names can make us feel, how they can change the way people perceive us and treat us, and how they can influence our lives. I remember telling a friend once that I wanted to change my surname to my mother’s maiden name which is one syllable short of Chetcuti. He replied with something about linguistic rhythm and feng shui or something: “No way! Tamara Chetcuti has symmetry, six syllables, flow. A two syllable surname would just disrupt the rhythm.” Makes sense, I guess.

Luckily, I have a first name that I absolutely adore and I feel describes me and makes me whole. Other people seem to really like it too and they always remember it – which can be a good and a bad thing (depends on which side of the crime scene you’re on!). At least I can say I am blessed to have a name I like and that has brought me joy (even though I have struggled in the surname department). And all this talk of names has been brought about by a hilarious post by a fellow Tamara blogger who talks about people mispronouncing her name. I found the post so funny and true! Names really do have a greater impact on our lives than we think they do.

How are you BLESSED today?

Tamara 🙂

30 BC – DAY 21

Today, I am blessed because…

I always have enough water for my hydration and sanitary needs!

Summer is heating things up and I’m finding myself getting sweatier by the minute. Not flattering at all. I am trying to minimise the use of my fan but the heat is getting unbearable at times. Luckily, I have a secret weapon…WATER! I have increased my shower intake and I am also guzzling down water every few minutes. Two months ago I decided to completely stop drinking soft drinks (because they are unhealthy, they upset my stomach and I don’t really like soft drinks anyway). This means I would have now successfully eliminated soft drinks, coffee, milkshakes and crisps from my diet in the past five years. Yay for me! It also means I am now consuming a lot of water, whether it’s in a bottle or coming out of a shower hose.

A couple of years back, my dad and I had a dream to have a recyclable used water system installed in our house. We had done up the design and everything but it never materialised. This was around the same time that a draft paper on Sustainable Water usage in Malta was set up. I don’t know if this paper was ever finalised. You don’t hear much about it these days. However, I have come to notice that in the last 12 months a lot of NGOs in Malta and all over the world are putting an emphasis on sustainable water usage. One example is SOS Malta and its participation in the global Walk for Water campaign.
It is important to realise that we are lucky to have a water system connected to our homes here in Malta, even though a reform needs to be carried out to stop usage abuse. Some places in the world don’t even have this privilege and have to walk long distances to get safe clean drinking water.

The picture above symbolises to me how water keeps our minds alive. It keeps us nourished and hydrated. It cleanses us and keeps away illness. Sometimes a cool splash of water to the face can take away a headache or feelings of stress, or even wake us up when we’re tired. Water is precious. Water is life.

I am truly lucky to have access to such a wonderful natural resource.

How are you BLESSED today?

Tamara 🙂

30 BC – DAY 20

Grrrr. Today was one of those really bad days. I am utterly exhausted by its madness. So exhausted, in fact, that I don’t have the energy to recount what happened. I’m saving that energy to bring out the positive. Here we go…

Today, I am blessed because…

people value my opinion!

I kind of have a bad habit of getting discouraged when people ignore what I have to say. I’ve learned to ignore these feelings because as humans we all tend to lend a deaf ear sometimes. We sometimes only listen to what we want to hear and I am guilty of this too! It’s nice to know, however, that there are some people who think highly of your opinion. I am always really grateful when someone stops to take the time to listen to what I have to say. And the best part is when they come back to me and thank me for my advice. It’s really a great feeling! Thank you.

How are you BLESSED today? ^_^

Tamara.

30 BC – DAY 19

Today, I am blessed because…

I know so many talented and skilled people!

This one’s easy for me to say as I recognise and appreciate talent every single day. It is one of those things I thank God for all the time. There was a time in my teenage years where I wanted to be a talent scout and manager because I just couldn’t stop looking at people with such genuine child-like wonder and pinpointing their strengths. I like to be in a creative environment where I can assess individuals and their talents/skills and combine them to create something truly magical. I tend to look for the good in people and I am easily impressed even by simple skills like tying a good knot. (My knots are so frail). Although one can train to acquire a skill, it takes something else to make it a talent! I do hope that my dear talented friends and relatives keep on pursuing their talents, because it makes me really proud to know that they recognise their own unique abilities and share them with the rest of the world.

How are you BLESSED today?

Tamara 🙂

30 BC – DAY 18

Today, I am blessed because…

I laughed.

I have a credit card sized poster stuck on my wardrobe that says:

“The most wasted day of all is that on which we have not laughed.” – Sebastine Chamfort

You better believe it baby!

Keep on laughing 😉

Tammy xoxo

30 BC – DAY 17

Oops, I’ve had such a long and eventful day that I almost forgot about my daily challenge post!

Today, I am blessed because…

…I am talented!

I am not trying to brag here at all. For most of my life I have found it very hard to acknowledge my talents. When I am good at something and I am challenged to prove it I get so nervous. The thought of people watching me or there to directly judge me is so nerve wracking! However, I go through most of these situations in life with courage even if they freak me out. I think people see that, recognise my strength and appreciate the effort. It also helps that when I really do try hard to shape  a talent I love, I do it with so much passion that people just have to take note. Now that I may be starting full-time work, I have to overcome my fears and just do what I do best. We can’t stay living life with regrets and we can’t stay belittling ourselves. I can’t tell you the number of times I made myself feel worthless because of one stupid mistake. It’s not worth the effort to put ourselves down. We’ve got to recognise our positives and work on those first, before dwelling on our negatives. And after an afternoon of watching Britain’s Got Talent, I think it’s about time I kicked up my study regime a notch and showed those examiners what I’ve got, as after today’s dreadful exam, I really need to prove my worth. Wish me luck!

Peace and Blessings,

T.