2010 – Dedicated to Uncle Benny. R.I.P.

I have been absent from this blog for almost 2 months now and all the while I have been waiting for some inspiration. And finally it has come. Almost 48 hours ago my dear Uncle Benny passed away after a long battle with prostrate cancer. The battle started late last year when in November 2009 we thought we were going to lose our loved one but the good Lord gave us an extra year to enjoy his presence. After a year of suffering, my uncle left us and can finally rest in peace.

It is probably strange for anyone reading this to consider it as inspiration. My family was devastated with the news and Christmas won’t be very festive for us this year. However, when it comes to curing any sadness or emptiness I might be feeling, I have often relied on my ability to write. And write I shall.

One of the best ways to make yourself feel better is write about the good things in your life, or perhaps, the positive things that happened to you today. I am not lying. Putting thought to paper (or typing thought to word processing software) is truly deliberating! Today, I shall take the time to write about the positively inspiring things that happened to me and that I made happen this year (in no particular order). And I dedicate this blog to my Uncle Benny: a good man full of love and wisdom.

A new haircut is a real boost to the ol’ self esteem

Back in April 2010, I walked out of a hair salon, shocked my friends and nearly gave my family a heart-attack. This was an occasion where I recognised who were the people who really respected me. It was also the first time I appreciated how hair affects people’s perception of you.

Shaving half my hair off is the ballsiest thing I have ever done in my life even though it requires no effort whatsoever. I always wanted to shave my whole head but I am not yet emotionally stable for that move just yet. I didn’t make the move to natural hair just to shock people. I did it to repair my damaged hair from years of chemicals and fake extensions. My hair has grown surprisingly fast since then and a lot of people who strongly (and I mean strongly) disapproved of it, have now grown to love it. All I want to say is that I am still the same person within but with improved radical self-love. Because in order for me to have taken this first step to change I had to accept the change myself.

Unexpected career change?

OK. So this one’s a bit exaggerated as I haven’t technically started a proper career but it counts for life changing experiences. Ever since I was thirteen I knew I wanted a career in Economics. I remember my first lesson vividly. I even remember where I was sitting in class and what my first assignment was. I cannot say the same for any other subject I ever took. Therefore, my whole world was obliterated into millions of tiny pieces when I got the news that I didn’t qualify to continue to my Honours year as a Bachelor of Commerce in Economics.

At first I was depressed for a long while and considered myself a failure. I entered Banking and Finance reluctantly but was determined to give it a chance. Three months into the academic year I can say that I am loving Banking and Finance so much that I am considering a career in it. I have become so focused since this heart-breaking experience hit me last July that I stuck up a text-art poster I drew myself onto my inspiration wall in my room. It says “Work hard, make sacrifices and the universe will meet you halfway.” We really never know what our future holds. This is why we should set goals but keep ourselves open-minded at the same time to avoid dissapointment. You might not get what you want NOW, but if what you want is clear in your mind, then you will get it some time or another. Be patient.

My First Time…

… Camping!

When I was sixteen I had to attend an orientation session before starting Sixth Form. The first activity involved entering a classroom with a mixed group of males and females and taking part in various icebreaker activities. I met this guy in the class who at the time I thought was gorgeous until he opened his mouth. His conversation was brainy and his voice was manly but then we got onto the topic of camping as he was a scout. I remember telling him that I had never been camping and he scoffed at me and said “Pff, are you serious? You’re such a loser” and walked away. Unfortunately, I met many more rich snobs at this school as the year rolled by.

I have to say camping in Malta exists but it’s not as common as abroad. Not many people are aware of adventure brand names or even own adventure stuff. I’ve hiked before so I already owned hiking boots, hiking wear and other accessories but I somehow never camped before. However, just a week ago I got the chance to go camping with my friends and will be going back again in March. It’s not a big deal but it’s kind of good that I tried it. The reason being because I have this pact with myself which I have kept every year which goes like this: “Every year you must try something that you have never done before or that you have always wanted to do but never got around to doing so!”. Along with my hair and this event I can say I kept my promise for 2010.

Finding long-term inspiration


This year I met a woman who has changed my whole perception of life. She has taught me to be strong, to be independent and to attract the things I want in life. She is none other than Gala Darling and whether you’re a guy or girl you will find infinite wisdom from this woman. I didn’t meet her in person and I don’t agree with everything she says but the things I have agreed with have been a true inspiration for me. I have even purchased her podcasts and followed a lot of her advice. But I think the greatest lesson of all that she has taught me is:

“As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence actually liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson

Keep on shining through 2011 everyone!

Peace and respect,

Tammy

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